Sometimes I wonder how serious the past is considering who I am with. I know my past is long, dark and extremely deep and I managed to get myself out of that situation. I try not to remember my past, but I know it will always be a part of me, and I enjoy keeping photos of my ex considering he did pass away. He was and always will be a part of my life, including his family. I think about him every day, and wonder sometimes how things would have been, but know (in some crazy way) that things do happen for a reason. As much as I wish I could justify having his photo, I know sometimes it may bother my current partner. Luckily, if I’m ever having a hard day, I know I can still always talk to him about things and he does extremely well to listen.
Sometimes though, finding other pictures is hard. Social media allows us to go weeks, months and even years into a person’s past. Someone who is now starting a career and a family may still have photos of Senior Prom somewhere on the internet. We have that ability to peek at someone to see if they are who they say that are. Sometimes you find photos on the internet, sometimes you may, who knows…find them in a backpack when you are trying to write a nice note while packing their lunch considering they hate their new job.
I’m sure you get the hint. I found a photo of my partner’s ex, along with other photos. I don’t really understand why, but I’m sure he forgot they were in there. Other times, I get stressed out considering how long they were together. And then I get confident about us being together again. But then I remember that we haven’t even know each other a year. What should I do? It’s hard to talk to someone when you’re already horrible at talking. I always have been, and I still continue to work on it every day and I sure hope you all do the same. It’s really hard to talk to someone when in your past, it’s been difficult to talk about almost everything. But I know this is something that will bug me. Even though I wasn’t even looking for it, I still found it.
Don’t go looking for something if you’re not ready to handle what you find. You never really know what will happen or what you may come across. Be sure to prepare yourself for the unexpected, but always be ready to talk about it as well. It doesn’t hurt to ask questions, but it sure hurts more to keep something cooped up inside.
xo,
Sam
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